Me he salvado en tantas guerras, me he cansado de llorar, y ahora que ya estoy de vuelta quiero vivir mas.

I may only be 21 years old but after living in Chile all this time I feel like I''m 40. It's just that every single week something else has to come along that stresses me out beyond belief. I have had to deal with so much while being here that I can't and don't think like most people my age. Going out to bars or clubs or drinking with friends almost every night is something that sends shivers up my spine and freaks me out. It really is because of other people I stress so much, so being with people to have fun? Not a good idea.

Last night Andres and I went out to Las Terrazas to go out and try and have a good time, basically just so we wouldn't have to be shut up in the house all the time. Everyone needs a break from the routine every now and then just so you don't get so bored.

BAD IDEA.

Way too many people, music way too loud, poor service, and horrible drinks. I felt way more uncomfortable than you would think humanly possible, I did have some good company though.

Andres really is the only part of all of this that makes being here worth it. I have said it a million times and I will continue saying it: I would be barking mad if he wasn't in my life. He talks sense in to me and just gives me a little peace and calm in this madness that is Santiago.

Back to growing up and responsibilities....It seems like once a year something goes wrong with my life back in USA. Last year I lost my flight with United and that was a month long battle to figure out what I was going to do, but I did it myself. This year though, it got a little more complicated. My advisor at SOU never got my completion letter from my internship so I ended up receiving an incomplete and 0 credits. When you fail to complete any amount of credits at SOU they take away your financial aid and therefore taking away your ability to study next term.

So I took care of it all by myself once again (with a few phone calls done by Andres...). I got my financial aid back. My advisor got the letter. I'm looking for my other internship to receive full credit.

I know how to do things on my own and by myself and I feel 40 years old because of the road that brought me here.